Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake Up and Live! ~Bob Marley
When it rears its ugly head, there is no stopping it. It is what I call, “The Green Monster.” What is a girl to do? You want to do right, but it can be very overpowering and at times can not be controlled. I am a woman with trust issues I must admit. It has been this way since I was a young adult. I know that the man I married loves me and will move mountains for me. When you feel this thing, this monster that gets inside your head. It is like you are temporarily possessed by thoughts and scenarios that are not true! You become accusatory, and before you know it, you are interrogating the man you love. I am here to say, STOP IT RIGHT NOW! It will hurt you in the long run.
Self Discovery: Think about how you came to be this way. In my family, there was infidelity done by my father. I witnessed my mother look the other way, and she always would tell us, “I stayed in the marriage because of you, my children.” I felt a lot of guilt and in retrospect, as a child growing up I should not have inherited this type of burden. I loved my father, but I hated that he was not faithful to my mother. Hence, I believe it’s where it all began.
Self Recovery: Find the root of this evil and pluck it, before it ruins you and your relationship. I know I have received a lot of support from friends and family in the past. I have spent time searching within, and it is different for everyone that has experienced this. If it becomes out of control beyond family and friends, then seek additional support. Destroy ” The Green Monster,” once and for all!