Grief. You can not avoid it or lock it down or run from it when you lose a loved one or a friend. It knocks the wind out of your sails because you are not aware when it is coming. I had a co-worker that said it best, “when you are born, you are given a set appointment. It has no time and no date,” and we all get one.
There is nowhere to turn but to confront the grief and deal with it. My friend died from the Coronavirus. It did something to me, forced me to think about my mortality and think about my relationship with family and friends. Are they close to you, or are you estranged? How long has it been since you communicated with them? All the stuff that swirls in your head when death comes knocking.
My friend and I had an estranged friendship, we lost contact with each other, and it was of my own doing, my stupidity, and sensitive self, I detached! I think about her last moments, was she alone? And because of this virus, she may have had only the medical staff to give her comfort in her final moments. My heart breaks!
My lesson? I don’t want to detach from anyone anymore. I want to value those around me and cherish every moment. It is my personal goal.