My Bucket List

For those that are thinking of creating a bucket list, don’t put it off. It may surprise you what goes on the ongoing plan. Avoid a due date because it is a continuous list.

I have been contemplating creating one for years, and today I decided to put it out there for everyone to see, and in hopes that I will get excellent feedback.

To give you a backdrop on this writer, me, of course. I am a creature of habit. I don’t particularly appreciate going outside of my comfort zone. And worst of all, I suffer from a horrible case of stage fright, but I have a deep desire within my heart. I may complete my list or may not, who knows! Trying is better than not trying at all. Wouldn’t you agree?

Here goes my bucket list:

1. A girls’ trip with my daughter and my granddaughter. Nowhere unique, but it must be memorable and remembered with love.

2. Traveling abroad: I have traveled to many places like London, Mexico, the Cayman Islands, and Cuba. It is just a fraction of what I would like to accomplish, like visiting Spain, Australia, Ireland, and Canada, to name a few.

3. Singing in front of an audience: So, here is the optimum test. I sing online, and I done Karaoke in front of family and friends, but I want to sing in front of an audience, one song, one night. Don’t worry. I don’t have delusions of grandeur of becoming famous. Remembering back to my community college days, I was approached by a fellow student, she was in my voice class. A local band was looking for a singer and she suggested I do a demo, but I bailed due to fear. I guess this desire is stemming from that memory—the “what if” syndrome.

4. I love to do more blogging I love it, but need guidance on how to improve traffic to my page.

5. Hot Air Ballooning: It is a little intimidating, going high up and all, but I imagine it will be exciting!

There you have it! These are only the highlighted desires on my bucket list. I welcome your thoughts. Thank you!

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Lost Soul

She looked into her mirror and realized she had lost her way, a lost soul. She is, she has stopped believing in her self and second-guessing her abilities. At her current age, she should be more confident and more self-aware. What has changed?

Every day has become hum, drum, pretty ritualistic with no spontaneity. Work is work, and she continues to work it to no end.

For the average person looking in, they see success and happiness: a good job and a good marriage, a loving family.

The reality the picture is dark with constant arguments, not being listened to but claiming she does not pay attention. She is distracted, longing for a different life. No one knows her true feelings, she plays the I am alright game, but she is crumbling slowly.

This week she has decided to venture forth seeking new opportunities to fill her soul, to find happiness in what she creates and what she does. She is striving to get rid of the emptiness she feels inside and has felt for a bit. It is sad!

Alas, she will find her soul to be whole. It will take hard work and perseverance, but in the end, accomplished!

My Blog Journey

“Work for a cause, not for applause, live life to express, not to impress.”

~Unknown

I am hitting the keys in hopes of ideas to emerge. They say you must keep at it with resilience, and not give up on your creativity. If you are among those that follow my blog, you would know, I don’t stick to one particular topic but write about what inspires me. It is my way of keeping it exciting and not go stale. My writing palette is vast and not all is kept in one basket.

I love life, with all its ups and challenges that come with it. I would not trade it for anything. That is why I do what I do. I show my expression through blogging, creating is an art form. It exudes beyond you with no control, just the flow onto the keys and paper, inspiration at its best.

I admire those that are experts at one topic, expanding to multiple layers of delivery. I welcome feedback from my peers in the blog world. I consider it an honor to hear from my peers about this ongoing blog journey that we all share.

I am not looking for how-tos, but ways of coping and not give up.

Moods Change

” Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

~Unknown

Feeling uninspired, conflicted, and in a quandary is chaos. Moods change, and often don’t make sense at the time they occur, but life continues no matter what or when the mood strikes. It is a matter of how you handle these emotions, and how you cope in the precise instance a personal challenge descends upon your path.

I know I realize I am speaking abstractly right now, but do you get what I am trying to convey?

My point is life happens for the good, the bad, and even the ugly. We must survive it, and we must live our utmost passion to the best of our abilities. Don’t you agree?

On a personal note, it is ongoing for me, but I strive to improve, to grow, and continue to fulfill my life with things that make me happy. Don’t allow your change of moods to steal your joy.

Why Do I Blog?

” You don’t have to be big. You have to be remarkable.”

~Joe Pulizzi

Why do I blog? I have asked this question so many times. In short, I am passionate, and it makes me feel fulfilled to my core. Besides that, I love sharing my stories or what I have to say at that given moment. My granddaughter often says, “Grandma, you are funny!” I admit I can be slightly dorky, and somewhat goofy, but I would not change anything for anyone. Why? It makes me happy!

I have not blogged in a bit. My last blog post was a poem entitled ” Pulse Remembered,” and at that time, so many things happened, and for whatever reason, the words were not pouring onto the page. It was not happening for me.

I will share a funny story just the other day, and being that all of us are in the house these days. I was listening to the news about our current situation with the Coronavirus; something just sparked!

I went on my account in WordPress. I gave my page a little spruce up, swept some of the cobwebs off, made it pretty and presentable, and I began to write. It was the best feeling, and I have not felt this way in so long. I am happy to say my ideas are flowing like the lyrics of a song.

I look forward to sharing my creativity and ideas on my blogger’s journey.

Life is a Gift

In the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years. ~Abraham Lincoln

Life is a gift, an incredible gift not to be squandered, but merely cherished at every chapter experienced throughout a lifetime. I woke up longing for my life’s purpose. I  continue to search, and I search through taking pictures and my writing but I yet to find it. It is like a piece of my life’s puzzle is missing and I am searching for that missing piece to bring it to completion. In my soul, I see it I was meant to be doing something more, and there is an empty void inside my professional heart.

On a personal note: I am married to a good man I have an amazing family, and yet I question my professional side. It is as though I am not complete! I ask myself, “did I make a difference in someone’s life today?” Or, ” Was I able to make an impact for the greater good?”My answer is usually, “no!”

My decision? I plan to search for that one job that will fulfill my professional life. I sent three resumes thus far and will continue on my quest. The skies are the limit until I find the right fit for me! The area of my search will be broad I worked different roles. I will explore my options from this day forward…stay tuned!

My Best Self

 

It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop. ~Confucious

What direction is my life going? I aspire to be my best self, but I am not where I should be. Many know early on where their path will lie, but I have not found mine yet. At the age of 57, I continue to search for my best self. I have been in many positions of employment. However, I have not been enriched or happy in any of them. That has been a hard pill to swallow! I am rich with the knowledge of many things and applied them to my life. I share with individuals in need of a resource or a contact.

What I do know about me I am a very creative person never been given the opportunity to showcase mine talent. I have learned from the school of hard knocks that I must advocate, to speak up even if it hurts and to receive feedback from my peers no matter how much it stings. I continue my search for my best self I will keep going…and not stop!

 

My Creativity

Words are a lens to focus one’s mind.
– Ayn Rand

I think back to when my words flowed, my creative streak was in full gear. My words came through like musical notes on a  page to form a beautiful melody. I am in a struggle attempting to create a work of art to keep you awe-struck!  Let me know, how I do at the end of this piece.

I don’t know about you, but I find myself questioning my creativity. Where has it gone? I looked forward to writing; I could not get enough of it!

I think I stopped writing when I started working. I spent two years on the unemployed island. It was what I did-It consumed me! The feeling of my fingers as I typed on the keys, the ideas flowing and seeing the finished product created by me. It was nothing like it.

It was what I did to avoid thinking about being jobless. The many job searches and resumes that were sent out. I can not begin to count how many and eventually,  I stopped counting. My escape was the writing which kept me from pulling my hair out!

I want it back, that feeling of oneness with ideas and the flow of words.

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True Dreams Past and Present

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. ~Harriet Tubman

I did not have an idea what my future would bring growing up. I had many dreams back then, but the dreams I had were very high on my ambition scale. My parents did the best with what they had. We were a family of four, my dad worked a lot, and my mom stayed at home to take care of us, but my story is not about my upbringing, it’s about discovering our real dreams. I left my parents direct to my married home.

Now, fast forward to the present. I am in my late fifties, have adult children, I am a grandmother and married to the same guy for over thirty years. What can I say, he is my best friend, my confidant and the guy I go out with every Saturday night. He works away from home these days, and I find myself with a lot of alone time.

I had an epiphany, and it became apparent that I never ventured out on my own. How did I get here and how do I move forward from here? As a young person I had so many aspirations; going away to college, becoming a famous singer and traveling abroad to become an artist.  I married my guy, and we started a family, everything that I dreamt of achieving was placed on a shelve.

Years later, I graduated from college, I did not become a famous singer nor did I become an artist but what I did discover were new passions. I have a love for picture-taking and a love for writing aside from having a full-time job.

Isn’t it funny how many dreams flock through a young person mind? I believe that it is a necessity for the development of self-worth and individual identity.

I look forward to exploring the possibilities through discovery by taking it one day at a time. Food for thought.

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